Easter reflections

Easter two years ago marked a very low point for me. I felt abandoned, lonely, and more isolated than I ever had (which is saying a lot, because even though I have been blessed with some incredible friends, I’ve also spent most of my life feeling like I don’t quite fit anywhere). The months beforeContinue reading “Easter reflections”

Boundaries and obsession

This weekend, a man contacted me through a dating app. After I skimmed his profile, I was 99% sure I wasn’t interested, but I decided to continue the conversation just to see what happened. I do that sometimes, on the off chance someone pleasantly surprises me. So far they haven’t, but I’ve ended up withContinue reading “Boundaries and obsession”

Not-so-small gifts

I think the term “miracle” is overused, so I’m not going to call what’s unfolded since Friday a miracle. But I am going to acknowledge all of it, gratefully, as a series of gifts that I badly needed. For months now, since even before COVID-19, I’ve been feeling like I couldn’t stand any more hits,Continue reading “Not-so-small gifts”

Of snakes and signs

This morning I heard a Zoom talk by author Janisse Ray, whose Ecology of a Cracker Childhood is not only wonderful, but a particular a must-read for anyone visiting the Okefenokee Swamp (one of my favorite South Georgia places). I met her in person a few years ago and fan-girled so badly that when sheContinue reading “Of snakes and signs”

The gifts of pandemic season

I’m going to start this off by acknowledging that quarantine/isolation has been insanely hard on most of us, and I’m no Pollyanna. I have heard many painful stories from friends, and I’m living my own. In the midst of this, it’s often difficult to find anything good or hopeful. A year ago I heard StephenContinue reading “The gifts of pandemic season”

Facing uncertainty, wading into anxiety, practicing gratitude

My university announced today that face-to-face classes will not resume for at least two weeks after spring break. Over the past few days, I’d watched on social media as friend after friend posted that their institutions were transitioning to online instruction, so this move wasn’t unexpected. And while I dislike teaching online, I realize thatContinue reading “Facing uncertainty, wading into anxiety, practicing gratitude”

Reprieve and gifts (Waycross)

Barbara Brown Taylor gave me permission to take a break, to stop trying to find my way through the night. After reading her, I decided to give myself time off from prayer and spiritual books and the quest to understand. The despair from earlier in the week had begun to mellow into a gentle, benevolentContinue reading “Reprieve and gifts (Waycross)”